meganelise95:

I absolutely hate when freshman from south river bitch at people from Arundel and call them “lame” or “losers” because, we don’t party every weekend, loose our virginity, smoke, or always get wasted. That doesn’t make you cool? You look STUPID. So, sorry we have class.

amen to that.

oh and…in 20 years look back on what you did in high school, maybe then you’ll regret growing up too fast. Sorry for being responsible.

I’m bored. Soo…out of boredum I’ve decided to list things.

Pet Peeves:

1. When people leave the door open when I shut it for a reason.

2. When you don’t press clear on the mircowave when you’re done.

3. People who laugh at things that are NOT funny.

4. Loud talkers…

5. When you’re coloring something and miss a tiny little spot and forget to fill it in.

Things I love:

1. When people go out of their way to do something nice for you. Anything. Even something little.

2. Laughing.

3. Waking up everyday and realizing how good I’ve got it.

4. Hugs!

5. My family and friends. So cliche, but come on…gotta love ‘em.

Random things about me that you probably didn’t know or want to know:

1. I have OCD.

2. I can crack/pop all of my joints…kinda gross.

3. I might seem outgoing, don’t get me wrong…I am. But I’m also super self conscious.

4. I bite my nails. All.the.time.

5. I hate secrets, but I can keep one.

Is it bad that every time I hear your name my heart skips a beat? Is it bad that I still can’t go a day without thinking about you? Is it bad that I always want to be with you? Is it wrong that I still love you? Everything, just everything is wrong. My feelings, thoughts, and desires. Wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong. I know I shouldn’t feel this way…but I still do. WHY?! I’ve spent so much time trying to tell myself how I deserve so much better. How I shouldn’t put up with the lies, betrayal, and well…bullshit. But yet, I become oblivious to all of these things every single time I think about you. I put all the bad things aside and somehow my mind can only focus on all the good things. Then I just go into a state of misery and regret. Misery because I miss what we had, I miss who you were. Regret because I just flat out regret giving away my trust and respect for you so quickly and so easily. I should of known better. I would do anything to start over with you, or just have a second chance. Although I haven’t been given a second chance with you, I’ve been given a first chance with somebody else. I got lucky considering this person is just like the old you, everything good, nothing bad. This time around I think I’ll know what to do. I’m not gunna let things happen like this ever again. Oh yeah, p.s. Thanks for letting me know what NOT to fall for. 

Musicmusicmusic. Every kind, any kind, whatever; I just love it. I’m not very musically talented. I’m not the best at singing, I quit piano, and I have no musical background in my family. I envy people who can sing, play an instrument, and make it look good all at the same time. I wish I could do that…so badly. But I can’t, oh well.  But still, music is a big part of my life. One of my all time favorite things in the world is to just lay outside at night during the summer looking up at the sky listening to music. It’s possibly the most relaxing thing you could ever do. Everything is just so isolated and peaceful, almost like you’re not even alive. All thoughts disappear and you focus on the moment, and nothing else. 

Surprisingly, I haven’t been on tumblr to vent all of my feelings/rant on about pointless things/talk about myself or others. Why? Because there’s been too much to say. Most of you who read you up until this point will probably think that this post is going to be completely pointless, but it’s not. Just keep reading.

So many things have been on my mind recently. Which is weird considering we’re on break, soo everything should be “stress free” or whatever you wanna call it…but it’s not. Taking a break from school has really made me think about the people I’m around everyday that much more. I’ll never understand why people care about their image so much. Everybody says that they “don’t care” what other people think, but deep down they do. Saying you don’t is just a bunch of bullshit. I’ll be on formspring just looking through the newsfeed…and some of the things people have the nerve to say to others are just flat out wrong. Nobody deserves to be made fun of for what they can’t help, be put down for no reason at all, or teased just because you think it’s funny. I don’t understand what drives people to want to do this kind of stuff. Yeah it’s over the Internet, yeah you’re right…nobodies gunna find out who wrote it, and yes, it is wrong to do. What happened to people caring about others? What happened to being respectful? What happened to staying in your own business? And most of all…what happened to accepting people for who they are? Now a days people only care about themselves. We do things for ourselves, not for others. Almost every intent of everything benefits us, and nobody else. You probably think I’m being dramatic here, but let’s think…what have you done for somebody else today? You don’t need to answer this question, you just need to think about it. I’ve said a lot of things in this post…but all of my points link together. Think about who you are with everyday, do you care about what they think? Do you care about them? Do you care enough to want to take some of your time to help them out? No matter what your answer/opinion is on all of these questions, take my word…next time you go to write something nasty on a person’s formspring or say something to them over text, just think. Think about these questions and answer them about that person. No matter what your answer is, yes or no, you should always give people the respect they deserve. Like my Dad has always told me, you get what you give. Nothing less, nothing more. 

You’d know that I regret;

Trusting people before I got to know them. There’s nothing more to say to this besides that trust is fragile, and can be broken just as easily as it was given away.

You’d know that I hate;

People who only think about themselves. I mean come on, there are about 63248953759237 million other people in this world, you’re not the only one who matters. Sometimes you should stop thinking about yourself, and do something for another person. You’d be surprised at how much little things actually matter to other people. So give a little. 

You’d know that I’m afraid of;

Not being accepted. Everyday you are faced with new people, and new places. You never know how people will react to who you are, you can either be accepted, or rejected. Sometimes you have control of whether you are accepted, other times there’s nothing you can do besides be yourself and hope that people like you for you, not for something you’re not. Being fake only brings you to fake places, and fake people. 

There’s always gunna be that one person who you will never stop thinking about, no matter how hard you try. Everything you do and everything you say makes you think about them whether you want to or not. Sometimes we just wish their name would stop popping up in our heads, and that the old memories would stop replaying over and over and over again. The big question is: why does this happen? When you think about it, there are very few people in your life that you think about every second of everyday. So, if there is a person who you do think about almost 24/7, what do they mean to you? Thoughts about people don’t just ramble around in our empty minds for no reason, it happens because we either care about them, and love them. Or on the other hand, cared about them and loved them at one point in time.Thoughts are for unfinished actions, or new ideas. Our thoughts continue when we choose to stop trying, or make the choice to never begin. Everyday we ask ourselves “What if?”, well, what if you actually took the time to figure out what would happen, then these rambling thoughts and “What if?” questions would stop. We could all live our lives in the moment, instead of living them in thoughts of regret or hope. Next time you think about someone, something, or someplace, don’t just take the time to ask yourself “What if?”, take the time to do it. You only live once.

The one thing I absolutely CANNOT stand: Bitches. People who are annoying. (aka people who are annoying because they bitch…)

We all know at least one of these people, unfortunately most of us know too many. Almost everything single thing they do pisses you off to no extent. Every time you see them you just get that feeling where you want to punch them in the face even if they are making absolutely no type of contact with you. The kind of people who their one and only goal is to receive attention, and to be the center OF attention. When you come across people like the your first reaction might be, “She needs to shut the hell up.” or “God I hate her so much.”. Sometimes these people crave the attention for one of two reasons; one: their only goal is to be heard of, or be seen because they want to be known. Or two: something else is going on in their life to make them act this way. If the reason is the first, all you can do is really feel sorry for that person because they only know one way to get people to know them, which is by bothering other people and making them upset, instead of being known for being a good person, or doing kind things for others. But if the reason is the second one I mentioned, then you should really try to look beyond what you see and think about what else could be the reason they act this way…they might have something going on at home that you don’t know about, or they just might live a hard life. By reading this title you probably thought I was going to bash on one specific person, or confess my feelings towards someone because I was annoyed with them, but that wasn’t my point. The point here is before you go to put a title on somebody, or judge them for what you see…think about what that person could be going through and try to look further into them. You never know a person as well as you think you do, we all have our secrets.

For the longest time I’ve wondered why people have to change. What makes a person become something they’re not? What makes people want to turn into something nobody wants, or likes? Why can’t we just all stay the same? Since high school started, most of these questions for me have been answered. I’ve learned that people become fake because they’re afraid they won’t be accepted for who they really are. People turn into lies, and get caught up in a fantasy world where everything and everybody must be perfection. Nobody stays the same, for that reason….because nobody else stays the same. In some way, some how, we are all pressured into becoming what we’re not. Reality is, change can either make or break you. It all depends on your choice. You can choose to be real. You can choose to be loved, or be hated. You can choose to stay the same, or move on from who you are. Unfortunately, there are very few people who choose the right path to take. On the bright side, the people you know who decide to take the wrong path unconsciously let you know they cannot be trusted, loved, hated, or liked; because they are in their own world isolated from the truth.

1. I see you everyday…well, that’s because you live with me. Often times I find that you are the only person I can come to with problems going on in my life. I know that you’ll always be there to listen, and help me through everything and anything. You give me advice that nobody else would even come to think of, and look after me as if I am more than just a person. Without you I would be lost…very lost. I guess this is a way of saying thank you for all that you have done.

2. What happened? I’ve known you for so long…and to think this is where we ended up. We were so close, from the time we met until the summer going into high school. Often times I think of what we did together, what we said, and how we got along so well. When school started, people changed, people didn’t care, people put aside everything just to focus on their image. You included. I thought school would make us close, but it did just the opposite. It ripped apart our friendship until there was barley anything left. It’s like I never knew you.

3. I hated you all the way up until the very end of 7th grade. The reason why? Because I never gave you a chance. But now I know who you really are. I regret all the ignorant thing i’ve said to you over the years, I only said it out of jealously. I’m glad we have become so close this year. Often times you are one of the only people I actually like, and want to talk to because of how caring, accepting, and not to mention funny, you are. I hope that we stay close friends all throughout high school, and even after that.

4. This happened way to fast. I though I knew who you really were, my mistake. You and I have been through so much, almost too much…now I feel the pain of regret. You are one of the sweetest, most caring, loving people I know; but on the other hand you are also one of the most, ignorant, bipolar, and confusing people I have EVER met. I have always looked after you, and made sure that I would never say or do anything to hurt you. For doing this, all I get back is betrayal, lies, and most of all…regret. I would do anything to start over with you, because the second time around I would know exactly how to handle things. I hope you eventually learn that screwing around with peoples’ feelings is not the way to get what you want. Always remember, you get what you give. Nothing less, nothing more.

5. Last but definitely not least. We became so close, so fast. I’m glad I have a friend like you. Actually not a friend, a best friend. Although you’re away about 90% of the time, it feels like you’re always here because of how you take the initiative to stay in my life, and always be there for me. You are one of the people who I will always look up to because of how honest, accepting, and caring you are. I want to thank you for all that you have done for me, and how good of a friend you have been to me. I know we fight, but in the end I will always be here for you.